Open Doors & Invitations

The only invitation that anyone in this world should be looking for, is the invitation to get through the pearly gates of heaven.



It doesn't matter if I walk with you, what matters is that you walk with god.





I know last night and this morning didn't turn out the way you expected it to.
You know why that is, that's because I have some tough little angels around me that keeps the evil spirits away.



I'm not going to give you or anyone else the satisfaction and put you down because I was raised better than that. So it's OK if you keep taking cheap shots at me. Your cheap shots is my motivation, so keep it coming.



For years people always tried to put me and my man down, yea you think i don't know but
I do. You talked about how he was trash cause as a teen he sat on the dumpster drinking a 40 of O.E or a deuce deuce of St. Ids. I was supposed to be the one who relied on the government, a single mom &/or the victim of domestic violence. But look at us now, next month we'll be 14yrs and counting, with so much to show for ourselves; and no one helped us, but us. I never called you crying for support. Never relied on you to take care of my kids. Never asked you to do me any favors. As a matter of fact not only did I not ask you, I didn't ask anyone. I had (and still have) him and he has had (and will always) have me.



If your looking forward to reading my facebook page and see me talk about how much I hate you, sorry to disappoint you cause I don't and I wont. No matter what you feel about me, know that this is something that you concoted. I'm not going to hide from you when I see you, and you know what I am not running away from you either, if you feeling any type a way towards me, than it's all up to you to stay the heck away from me. So with that said if you can't call me to see how I am doing then do us both a favor and just don't call. When your in trouble, don't call me. When you need someone to do a favor for you don't call me either.



I was considering lashing right back at you, but you know what, I am a mother, a daughter, a wife, a cousin, a niece, an aunt and... A freaken independent adult so why go there. What example will I be setting for the next generation.

I will not say that my doors are closed to you cause that will be far fetched. However; I will say that my doors are closed to anyone and everyone who's hearts and souls are closed to god.

heavy attractions towards emotions

People care about the person within, if no one wants to be around you maybe you should take this into consideration....

How can you allow drama to dictate how you interact with people

Are you kidding me? Name a time, day or place when you were close to all those you're so pissed at
To say that someones current actions are out of character for them, how would you know? when was the last time you spent quality time around them?

Everyone has a life that he/she has to live. If you want to be included you have to accomplish one simple thing....

You need to get all the Heavy Attractions Towards Emotions out of your freaken system! If and when you do this, maybe you wont feel the need to brag about shit that no one gives a crap about.

Well, good luck on your journey, hope to see you soon (I have a feeling you may be a while)

WHAT IS IT THEY'RE HEARING???

Day in and day out I think about ways that I can shape my children to become respectable and successful adults. However, I find it difficult to do when all that I do is work. I sometimes feel like I am their commander and chief instead of their mother.

"hurry up and get dressed for school before we're late!"

"hurry up and get in the car before we're late for karate!"

"hurry up and get in the shower, it's getting late!"

It's difficult for me to not be a mom on the go. Believe it or not I enjoy it (but to a point). I love being out and about, I don't knock those who choose other wise, but it's just not me.

HUMMM... this makes me think... do I work because "I'm materialistic"
nope, that cant be it , every time I tend to shop for myself I come home with bags for my children. (why is that??)


It's so difficult for me to NOT be so.. on the go, even when I am going no where.

{If your confused it's ok so am I!}

At work I am accustomed to making "to do lists" and directing my staff. I try so hard to flip my assertive switch off when I get home, but I just cant. I have this itch [or even better] urge to always be in control, but lately I feel like every thing around me is so... out of control! (again, why is that?)

All that I hope is that my children see and understand that everything I do and everything that
I say, I have their best interest at heart.

Some how, some way I have to learn how to ease up. After all

if I want to be heard I have to understand how people (especially my children) hear me.

And right now at this point all I say is "hurry, hurry, hurry" what message am I really sending out to them?

When I speak to them what is it that they're hearing???

Time with just me.

Have a moment, how can I. Need a nap, most definitely, if only. There is always something going on. So many things that I want to accomplish but there's just not enough hours in the day for me. I know that I shouldn't cry over spilt milk but sometimes that's all that i can do. I want to make changes with in myself but for every step I want to take forward there's a road block keeping me from continuing forward. Need to loose weight, cant fit the gym in my schedule, what a waste of $20 a month. Would like to finish making one of my many arts and crafts projects, but every time I take my supplies out, my name is being called "mom" says the kids, "Karen" says my mom, "Angie" says my job; pick a name any name and I guarantee you it's called a little too often. Want to read a book but guess what, yup... can't sit in peace for no longer than 5 minutes. I used to be able to juggle all these challenges, but lately all my balls have been falling. What does this mean??

I just keep wondering...

will there ever be a moment when nothing is going on so i can spend time with just me????